So I went to the cinema with my family today and saw a preview for a movie about this guy whose job has him constantly traveling via airplane across the country. He basically lives out of a suitcase and in fancy hotel rooms, catching flight after flight every day to make it to his next destination on time. The point of the movie, from what I've seen from the previews, is that he lives a life disconnected from human contact because he's never in one place for too long. He's surrounded by people and passengers and coworkers and flight attendants, but he's really just kinda... alone.
But apparently, he doesn't seem to mind it at all. In fact, he's very comfortable with his lifestyle, despite not having a concrete place to return home to, or a person waiting for him.
It's really weird, because relate to that feeling. A lot.
I don't think I'd mind a job that had me constantly traveling. I don't think I'd mind living out of a suitcase for the rest of my life. I think I'd love to hop from airport to airport every day. I don't even think I'd mind being all by myself when I did it, either. I've always kinda been a loner. I can entertain myself; I read, I draw, I fantasize, I'm honestly and truly my own best friend. I'm not really good with relationships. I'm indecisive and commitment phobic. I hate restrictions. I hate being tied down. I hate not having choices and I hate responsibilities. I hate long-term planning; I prefer spontaneity. I like going places, I like seeing new things, I like things that are... different.
Life and statistics dictate that you go to school, graduate high school, maybe go to college, maybe get a higher degree, get a well-paying job that pays the mortgage, marry someone suitable and have 2.5 children.
The thought of doing all that? Scares me.
If, at the end of the day, I'm all by myself yet happy with everything I've explored in life... happy with the places I've gone and the things I've seen and the risks I've taken... I think I'd be okay.
I may be a romantic, but at the heart of things I will always be an independent first.